we are who we were when

Holy shit, just for the sake of it. As Clemmy or others would put it, I would like to pop by and say HELLO WERLD.

Things haven't always worked out but I guess that's life. I'm honestly not too fussed because I think I've seen the truth in the world where the things we do don't really matter in the end. Not being pessimistic at all here but just being realistic. I guess our existence is justified by the amount of meaning it holds for ourselves. So whatever makes you happy, works. Thus, I'm living for the moment (present and future) and being not too fussed about the transient stuff that are beyond my control anyway (which is about everything).

Hope everyone's doing fine. (:

P.S. You know you've not been on LiveJournal for a long time when your last stored saved draft was a post about Huangcheng that you were ultimately unable to pen down. Back in April.

You are the best one of the best ones.

I thought I loved you, and it's just how you looked in the light?

What you said just left me cold and out of breath.

I should have known better than to call you out (on a night like this, a night like this.)

Suddenly we're all running out of time.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me.

You know I'll do it all again for you.

And I swear on my life, I''ll always be there by your side.

Because a girl like you is impossible to find, you're impossible to find.

Kill me while I still believe you were meant for me...

Here's a music quiz for you. They are all amazingly nice songs (to me), if you can identify like 70% of them then kudos to you cos we will have awesomely similar music tastes. Yeah.

I find it amusing that a year has passed and we're back to the part of the year where people go around wearing the gaudiest of costumes and the fashion faux pas that you'll normally have not seen on the streets. I'm sorry, Mum. But it's true. ):

Also, it's the rare time of the year where you visit people that you don't know and don't remember, and shake their hands with a fake smile plastered on your face. Both parties would probably then be thinking, "Right, so who the fuck is this again?" Well, that's for me.

Me, I don't get to spend my angbao money but it's for my own good. So okay. I didn't really get to feast on CNY goodies cos I have to preserve my voice for Huangcheng, not that I really like them anyway. So okay. I don't really like lao-ing yusheng but I did it thrice. So okay.

But, stuff I liked/enjoyed/was amused by would probably be:
1) Suddenly abalone appears to be in huge abundance. What more to say? :D
2) So is wine, I like ice wine. (:
3) Playing cards with my maternal side cousins
4) My cousin saying I'm damn handsome (that day) and wanting to recommend her friends to me. Haha I lmfaoed then.
5) Sleeping in. The best.

That's CNY for me. 2 more days of bull after that and it would be a new week(end). (:

i have no idea why the hell i stayed up till now reading everyone's long past lj entries. maybe i'm just too nosy.

need to work harder, need to stay focused, need to manage my time well. yeah, thats about it. succinct to the max!

oh yes, eyeshield 21 rocks. why have i never noticed?! ip noobs coming in today, finally, time for them to get a taste of what we already have.

um, thats about all. oh yes, im kinda screwed for math and history test. and i havent exactly done my weekend homework but its due on wednesday so

pardon the punctuation and everything

As usual, I'm late. Better than never. Seeing as basically everyone has done their reflections about the past year, I guess I shall do mine too. Not such a sucker for all the new year new beginning thing but I guess I felt. Melancholic? When I felt the year 2008 drift away from where I stood in a pool parlor at Toa Payoh Central. Indubitably, one of the best years of my life gone. With what promises to be a tougher route ahead.

Yesterday was spent heading to school as per usual for kaisheng with the Huangcheng Dao Dus before having our meeting on Dao Du matters for the upcoming year. In between that, we held a KLEP Room, in which we tuned into Youtube MVs and sang along to ballads such as Shou Qian Shou. What a moment to stop and live forever for. You know, there are times in your life when you wish you could pause it as it is because nothing could ever get any better from where you are now? Something like this. Right, after that, I headed out to watch Australia with my friend. We bought tickets for the 5pm show so we had to stone around for 3 hours before going into to the approximately 3 hour long movie. Gosh, it was good. Shan't bore you with details but it's really worth a watch. Then I headed home for the XBox before heading to the Brotherhood countdown at Momo's. Played XBox, pool, walked around the town centre and watching people countdown, stocking up cup noodles for the night ahead and watching stupid Stephen Chow movies to while the night away.

The year that I left behind was one of numerous ups and downs. Shall do a 10 most memorable things, I suppose. Probably miss a few.

1) OG43 and [ŁMĊ] - I think it's amazing we've stuck together for so long. Do you remember when we all sat outside Mad Jack's after Orientation and formed this OG? And how we cried the night before when we realised that even though we've all moved to our new lives, as you might call it. We still remember each other. I think thats whupass. [ŁMĊ] - We still haven't done our photoshoot but lol wtf. Our attempted [ŁMĊ]esque activities were hilarious to say the least.

2) Dao Dus and Brotherhood - Perhaps I would call them what I go to school for. Seeing as I go to school everyday for Huangcheng now. I see them everyday and I guess they would be the kind of friends that you call new but fast becoming old friends. As a group, as a team, we've pulled through much together and I think we'll definitely succeed in the year ahead. (: Lol, the Yi Gu Brotherhood or Guild, which was set up damn randomly but has random but fun outings at Moxiang's. Love the slippers. And I think we can overrun Chou Wei with this haha.

3)  08A11 - Not everyone, I suppose. But I'm glad I have great classmates who share much in common with me and allow me to feel a sense of belonging to the class and its people. I think we have a lot of good memories of the stuff we did at our class bench and all, the DS, the 'stabbings' and all. Lol.

4)  Music - My music library has 'evolved'? And my taste has changed too, I suppose. A music addict junkie, I guess you can tell that music is an integral part of my life, especially when I turn up for something always with my earphones plugged in.

5) OG 5 - I remember us as one of the most happening OGs, with the easiest of handsigns and the coolest of facils. Definitely miss the fun we had in Orientation, too bad we couldn't keep up the morning at the bench thing, eh? ):

6) Overseas trips - Damn? I still miss the US, the people and the culture insanely. I think I will migrate there one day even. Definitely the trip that has propelled my interest to see the world even further. Vietnam was an eye-opener considering it was only a couple of hundred kilometres away from Singapore but such a world away. Indonesia was every resort fantasy and the view from the mountain was amazing, I guess I learned more about my limits more there too.

7) Academia - Sucks like fuck. Will work harder. Hopefully.

8) Mousehunt - The ultimate addiction. Actually its in general more of Facebook apps but I've weaned off them all except this current obsession.

9) onemanga.com - How many lonely nights have I whiled away with you, man.

10) Memories of you - What more can I say?

Yah, whatever. As I said, not a sucker for new year resolutions.

 

Here's the obligatory Merry Christmas to whoever reads this. Now to the main point.

 1.Who is the person who tagged you?
Howard aka geebai who called me cheehong

2.The relationship between you and her/him?
Primary school classmate (in P5?), so kinda knew him for 7 years.

3.Your 5 impressions of her/him?
Hyper and loud
Can be emo and introspective
Generally even-tempered
Quite niao but gets niaoed too lol
Hardworking and smart

4.If she/he becomes your enemy, you will?
Dao him?

5.What will you say to the person whom you like very much?
Lub <3

6.The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is... ?
My awesomeness. Nah, probably nothing. I'm humble.

7.The characteristic(s) you hate about yourself is... ?
Too lovable. Impulsive, can be anti-social, unmotivated.

8.For the person whom you hate the most, you say...?
We don't speak.

9.What do people feel about you?
Okay to talk to? Have a generally weird/interesting sense of humor.

10.Who do you have a crush on?
This is probably the stupidest question that meme setters always put.

11.The most ideal person you want to be is... ?
Rich, has time to enjoy life. Alive.

12.Pass on this quiz to 5 people : (actually i can't think of people, whoever wants to do it...)
1. vivala_fiesta
2. clemmyy
3. limitedcake
4. shadowsilver91
5. seraphictempest

No idea if you've been all tagged already so just do it.

13.If no.2 & no.3 were together,what will happen?
LOTS OF GA Y LOVE. That would probably be an understatement still.

14.Who does no.5 like?
Luey Chun?

15What colour does no.1 like?
Umm. Red? :x

16.Say something about no.3.
Hoebag

17.Who is no.2?
A cheehong who has established a harem in his class. Resident cute bastard.

18.Talk about no.5.
Really really nasty. And really really funny too, especially when he's nasty.

19.Who is no.1?
Mari

20.Who is the sexiest person amongst them?
limitedcake, probably because he oozes so much want for gay love but never gets any (:

21.What colour does no.4 likes?
Orange probably.

22.Is no.4 single?
I think so?

23.What is your relationship with no.1?
Ran for Council together. :o

24. Are no.1 & no.3 best friends?
Noes.

25.What is no.5's surname?
Chong

26.What is no.1's nickname?
Mehmeh

27.What things do you wish to say to no.3?
Merry Christmas. (: Looking forward to the sleepover hehe.

28.What will you do to help no.5?
I will tape up his mouth to seal the nastiness. Probably give him a bitchslap or two to improve his looks. (:

29.Who does no.1 admire?
Um. People on America's Next Top Model and So You Think You Can Dance? shrugs

30.Where does no.1 live?
Eh. Bukit Timah area.

31.Does the 5 of them know who you like?
Never!

32.What do you wish to say when you see no.2?
I own your ass crack and you better remember it.

Actually, I  just kinda lost the impulse to blog so yeah. But it's been some time so I guess it would be good to do a brief recap for the sake of posterity aka myself. The main happenings in my life involve going to school for Huangcheng and going back home for the mass convo, DotA, Huangcheng stuff, VBA. Nope, no homework. Don't care so don't ask.(: The main highlight would be the Drama Camp last week. It was fun watching a bunch of hoes aspiring thespians go about doing their stuffs but I would say most of the fun came from working with everyone to make the Drama Camp more of a success than it could have been. Really enjoyed the night walks and talks, when we head down to Salt Centre all the way from LEP Room and back, all the while bitching, telling ghost stories or just plain chatting about the affairs that beleaguer every teenager.

Actually, it sucks cos I really have done no homework. No plans to do so anytime soon when apparently to my parents (and I guess to me) I should be spending my holidays scrabbling to buck up and do better for the oh-so-important next year. But yeah, like everything else, I've lost the impulse to do work. The holidays have nua-llified me. If there's such a word. And the next few weeks promise to be full of happenings like chalets, outings, meeting up for Huangcheng moar, etc. So.

Actually, I kinda posted without an aim. Yeah, could you tell?

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Put the title of the song as the subject.
4. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MAT

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY?
Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
I'm as puzzled about this as you.

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Taking Back Sunday - New American Classic
I love America! (:

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GIRL?
Snow Patrol - Hands Open
That fits but doesn't make any sense. Wtf.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger
O_O

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Howie Day - Collide
I hope that doesn't mean I'm bound for a life of crashing into people and sidewalks, GTA style.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Eminem - Mockingbird
And I don't know what motto I'm supposed to derive from this song

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Jason Mraz - Geek In The Pink
OMG. Is it true? T_T

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Five For Fighting - 100 Years
I sure do hope they live to that age. (:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
The Click Five - Catch Your Wave
Hm. Leave it for you all to interpret.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Bowling for Soup - Girl All The Bad Guys Want
Trust me, I'm as disturbed by this as you all.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Goldfinger - Stalker
I wish.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Westlife - World of Our Own
I hope this means I REALLY like my job.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bowling for Soup - 1985
Holy shit, that better not mean she's way older than me.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Yellowcard - Cut Me, Mick
...

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
My Chemical Romance - Disenchanted
I guess that's what marriage (or what follows) is about.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Green Day - Good Riddance (Time of Our Lives)
WHAT THE.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Ashley Parker Angel - Let U Go
I don't know how I'm supposed to go about with this hobby of mine.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved
I guess immobilization is a scary thing...

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Switchfoot - We Are One Tonight
Secret tryst worhx.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Lifehouse - Cling and Clatter
Say what?


Koped from Alan!

THE CHOCOLATE ROMANTIC

You’re a dreamer, who often retreats to your own world. You believe in true love and the healing power of beauty. You love sad books and movies, but then again, you love happy books and movies, too. You’re introspective, tender and caring. Face it, you love a chance to have a good cry. When it comes to chocolate, the packaging is just as important as what’s inside.

Yosh! Thanks Alan, who got it from Yonghui. I don't really like sad books/movies. >_> Okay only. But the rest is okay though I don't know wtf is the healng power of beauty supposed to mean.

Went to Sitex today! I bought a 250 GB PHD for 89 bucks and headphones with mic for 12 bucks. Woohoo Skype is addictive, and very useful for DotA games. (: Haven't tried my PHD yet, which effectively has 3x my com's hard disk space. Winz.

Hey yes, I'm back, reached at 0030 and have been home since but I just can't sleep. I'm not really sure if its plain jetlag or insomnia. Or maybe I'm just too emo. I keep thinking about what happened in the US, how in the short span of 12 days, I saw so many places, I saw the world, and also the people I've met and befriended for life, and I realise that I will and am missing it all. Terribly. Argh. I've been both trying to cry and not to cry and I'm just really zonked out, emo and bored now.

Compared to the other posts about the US previously, this one would probably be less frivolous. You know, all the talk about being Singaporeans becoming global citizens with a root in Singapore? I realised I've taken a rather major step in that direction when I experienced the US culture. For the first time in my life, I felt a strong urge to migrate. Suddenly, Singapore does not seem enough for me anymore. I can't really attribute it to a certain factor, maybe it's the fact that I've fallen in love with the American culture where people I met in Virginia are so unbelievably friendly and open, or that you could drive for hours on ends on wide open routes that lead to nowhere and everywhere. I really would like to see the world. And I really would like to revisit Virginia to again see the friends I've made there. But I realise I got to work hard towards that goal too.

I am really really emo now about the fact that it came to this day that we must part, where newfound but good friends have to be left behind as you return to your world that is half a world away. Both geographically and culturally. Damn, I miss you all. Christelle, Roy, Saurav, Neil, Kevin, Yelena, Matt, etc etc! It would probably be years till we see each other again, if ever. I hope all of you can come for the exchange that is expected to materialise next year. Sigh. It's a really heartwrenching feeling that has really no solution. I know there is no point troubling and emo-ing over it but I just do.

The first outing at the Tysons with all those guys, the party at Christelle's, the Math lessons, the 2nd outing at Tysons, playing Rock Band at Mat's house, Roy's Hard Gay moments and everyone's general gayness (in both senses of the word), the random Youtube videos, all these I would remember, man. I hope you all do too. (:

On the frivolous sidenote that contradicts what I said previously, I've carefully budgeted and spent only 2/3 of the money I brought! (: And I got alot of stuff I wanted plus more so yaye. Sorry, didn't get souvenirs, really I went around the airport stores looking for last-minute cool stuff but no, it wasn't cool enough. The trip back was 24 hours long but it didn't seem that long, probably because I watched like 5 movies on the plane from Washington DC to Tokyo and from Tokyo to Singapore. But during that 24 hours, we missed Thanksgiving Dinner ): and also the Black Friday sales (which starts at like 5 am in the morning in the US where almost everything goes for rockbottom prices) Damn, we missed it by a day!

Now I'm back to the cold (or in this case, hot) reality of work, school and perhaps abit of play.